Story

She wanted to know this man in gray who had passed her countless times at the near by market square.  She had seen him before and she loved how he looked in gray.  His skin was tan and his face unforgetable.  One day she will be his.  Driving down the street she saw him running along the way, seeming determined to finish his run.  She wanted to run beside him and feel his strength, but she was on her way to the bookstore and not ready for sweat.  At the bookstore she was thinking about the couple at the cafe drinking and conversing about their day.   How long had they been there?  She walks over to the history section and remembers how much he liked history.  How important the past can be to some people and mean so little to others, like herself.  She admired that knowledge base he carried, while all she could think about was social injustice.  Picking out a book, She walks out bag in hand and drove down the same avenue maybe he will still be there running.  This man she never knew and will know they will fall in love.  He would change her life and make the one thing impossible possible.    After some time she was given into fate and she was delt the card of love.  She loves the way he looks in gray, but he doesn’t know.

Life is Short Duh!

Sometimes I wake in the morning and don’t have a care in the world.  I wake in complete blankness in thought just laying in bed feeling the mattress against my body, between my pajamas, pushing back against me.  Other days I wake with numerous agendas and thoughts that I had planed and will plan and want to plan.  As soon as I step into the shower that is when, I say life begins, when I know what I am going to do for the day.  Often Life is underestimated and thought of as a ”must” a given a thing that we all have and will always have.  But that is not true, so not true, it can be taken and often time unexpectedly.  Awareness of how valuable life is, is key to living a good life.  9/11 made the whole world remember just how precious life really is.  Jobs, deadlines, expectations, and agendas are an inescapable part of life.  For those that have been able to escape those factors are lucky, but for the rest of us life calls between the grind stone.  Relish what you have, smile and laugh every chance you get and don’t every feel like you must be someone your not.  Be true to yourself and love yourself, that is the only way someone can love you and you can be truly loved.  Every person you meet have something to offer you.  It maybe just a warm smile or an anonymous passing glance, but they are a part of this world making someone’s life complete.  They mean something to someone.  Embrace your value and feel that value when you wake.  Someone is waiting for the acknowledgement of value.  In a subtle way or not so subtle either-way life is full of complex emotions sometimes contradictory emotions, but just be aware it is your life.  Take charge of those complexities and embrace them.  Never forget Mommy I will always love you.