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A friend of mine was talking to me about being ready for a relationship. I never knew anybody could be ready for a relationship. Does being ready mean that someone is willing to tolerate the emotional space needed to maintain a relationship? I was never ready to be in a relationship. It hit me like a headlight down a dark road; its light cast a world around me I could not see otherwise. One time, the light was so bright I never saw the spaces it did not shine its light on, and I was blinded. So my dear friend, I am unsure if you can ever be ready for the adventure that lies ahead, but you should know that blindness is a common side effect.
A cross road my dearest reader, I am talking about a fork in the road. I am reaching the end of a long journey, and it is a meaningful journey. It gave me purpose and direction, as it comes to an end I feel more certain I can do my job. I want to change the world, if it is one person at a time or community at a time. I want my work to be for the betterment of society. I expect only great things. I see myself reaching two different directions at the end 
of the path I have carved out of shear desire and passion. I have carved away at the hardest of stones with a pencil in hand. These two paths are different in that each path provides me a different audience. I have never had an audience; the people I love are not with me as I work towards my future. I am unsure who is to be my spectator. Who will share with me the experiences, while I do my work in the world? Until that day comes, I sill have the readers of the Internet to share in the moment of my life’s cross-roads.
