Loss equals change

With every challenge I have faced in my life, sadness has been my greatest enemy. My sadness is conceived by loss. Loss is a feeling that cannot often be explained but felt. The feeling of loss is personal and unique to everyone’s situation. Oftentimes, the emptiness is overwhelming, which can lead an individual to extreme social actions that create more damage than good. The social actions can range from death to self isolation. Yet understand these two extremes are damaging choices, as for me, I can vouch for self isolation.  I am someone else and have been for a year, due to sadness, I have kept away the things that could make me happy. I made a choice to suffer for my loss.
For a year, I have not allowed myself to speak. I have allowed someone else to take the reins as I held on for the ride, but I finally got the courage to speak.  I will not forgo my new found liberation.
I’m looking for the full life I dream of. Now I currently have one year before I can realize my potential to be happy. A happy full life, where my goals are materialized into real life experiences. I am grateful for my loss, because it has allowed me to see a different life. A life I deserve.

Hope for Better

My female friends most recently have had the same concern…their self-esteem. I am unsure what to do, because some of which are married or in a relationship, but either way I want to help them because they are unhappy with themselves. Maybe I cannot solve their self-reflective-issues, but I want to think about how I can advise them. I feel that nobody–no man–will fill that void for them, so they should take some time to soul search and make changes in the betterment of themselves. Some have referred to their male counterparts as a factor tied to their unhappiness. I worry most because I have lost contact with them. Yes, I speak to them, but not as often as I would like to speak to them. I feel for their feelings in the long run.

I wish that someone along the way would have told me and other women that men should complement our lives not make it for us. So women should spend time building up their value, either physical or mental, so as to find a man that will complement their established “self” spiritually speaking. I have felt low self-esteem as well, so I am no expert, but from what I have gathered from my own experience is…Love yourself first. If only I could speak to my friends and if only they would listen to my words. I would tell them all the many ways they have positively influence my life and how important they are to their relationships. Sometimes the dirt my look dry and lacking minerals, but if you start digging, you will find the minerals hidden from plain sight. I await the future to come with hands clasped together in the hopes for better and my voice ready to support other women experiencing a fruitless life.