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For a small portion of us, Life has no meaning
Do not think me weak or doubtful. I am far from any concept you might gather, as you read this post, which you may relate to fragile. I am recollecting a moment in my life. I want to share with you my reader a moment I have felt frozen–in a memory.
I walk into a small room, and around me, I see many people. Each of them look scared and concerned. These people are all sitting in the same room wondering the same thing…we doing the right thing.
For many people who are waiting to hear the fate of a loved one is the longest most emotional experience of their lives.
And for me, I just wait. I look around me, and I want to get up and walk away. I want the moment to end…I just don’t want to know. I do not want the pain to begin. I hold the hand of the person who told me they loved me, and I look into his eyes with worry. His eyes gave me no peace, but I still hold on pretending that they could. There is no stopping the fate.
“Am I going to be alright?”
I knew life would go on after the news was delivered and after the results were confirmed. I just remember the looks…the faces…his face… my worry.
The images in my mind never fade they live ever present whenever I call on them. When I think back on this moment, I am frozen in time. I am frozen.
You will never kill my spirit. My spirit keeps all I have done in the past as an ever going present reality. I allow it to cover my mind when I want to escape. I use the past to confirm my strength and give me the power to move past present challenges.
You will never kill my spirit because I have nothing to fear. 
